If Murphy had the energy, he might have turned on his side so he was facing away from him because that's how you deal with your issues. They're gone if you can't see them, right? That's why he fucked off to the other side of the ring, he couldn't look at all his fuck ups. He could turn a blind eye to all the concerning and disapproving looks. The silence during meals ate away at him more than he could have imagined.
So he curls in himself and just waits until people forget about him. It hurts less than people leaving him first. The pain is still there but maybe it just hurts a little bit less? Murphy can't tell the difference.
Jack can afford a spared glance from Murphy, a sidelong look. ]
How can you go to him after he tried to kill both of us?
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Date: 2019-01-26 12:47 am (UTC)If Murphy had the energy, he might have turned on his side so he was facing away from him because that's how you deal with your issues. They're gone if you can't see them, right? That's why he fucked off to the other side of the ring, he couldn't look at all his fuck ups. He could turn a blind eye to all the concerning and disapproving looks. The silence during meals ate away at him more than he could have imagined.
So he curls in himself and just waits until people forget about him. It hurts less than people leaving him first. The pain is still there but maybe it just hurts a little bit less? Murphy can't tell the difference.
Jack can afford a spared glance from Murphy, a sidelong look. ]
How can you go to him after he tried to kill both of us?